Memories Recreated

How should I start this?... i think today was very interesting, the night before i was feeling so nervous and afraid about something maybe the first impression she will make and i will make of each other. But i kept on telling myself heyy why worry? just enjoy it and that things will be great! I mean your going to meet the person who has spent huge amounts of time with you, always there to talk with, there to be with. But as time went by closer and closer i began to feel really uneasy. When i arrived, as i lay my eyes on her, my heart was beating incredibly fast, i was helpless and was afraid, but at the same time something about her new image, told me that everything would be alright that she was happy to see me. As we said the obvious "hi" to each other i relaxed, because that familiar voice gave me comfort, the sweet tender voice which gives hope and a feel of care.

We originally decided as a group to go watch a movie, but we werent up for it so we decided to have a walk around. We met up at a donut place (lol soz forgot the shop name, donut king?) neways we decided to take a seat and decide on something to do. But someone mentioned the card game "big 2" which was a good idea, but we didnt have cards so nicole went and bought some from games world. (btw i nearly got into a fight with some buff dad, cauz his some fkd up show offy guy, aussie asians lol. Yer i woulda clearly been smashed, he was fkn buff) Neways we got the cards, and nicole showed us a place to sit and play, neva expected it would be there. She took us out to a place, where it was quite relaxing and interesting, i guess more isolated than the places i had in mind, which was great except it hurt my legs, werent any chairs lol but was all good cauz there was something which eased the pain, that i enjoyed being here not because of the card game, not because of where i was, but because someone special was there for me, i laid my eyes on her, i couldnt help myself but to notice how sweet, cute, adorable she really is. Every time she shuffled the cards i took the chance to take a glance and admire her looks. It was an interesting experience playing a card game outside a shopping centre, but after a few rounds we decided to go back in and got some food. We went to the food court and had some things to eat, had a few talks and then decided to leave, but instead we spent another hour in the cinemas trying to make a decision for wat should be done for the night. Honestly i tried my best to stay with her, for the night because i just really wanted to be there for her, and just share our experiences in real life, face to face somewhere quiet, somewhere nice. So in the end we decided to go to nicoles house, which was great!!!.

Me and my good friend Tim waited outside, as we were trying to hide from her mum :P (shes hot lol). We got hungry decided to walk around "the suburb" as we reached the highway some fk heads drove past and called us faggots (lol i gave them the finger) fkd up individuals LOL!. We walked for a while but couldnt find a place to eat so we decided to head back, as we got back Nicole came out and called us in, which was a relief from catching a cold ;) :P. We spent the night talking, playing poker (i fknd pwned hardcore kthnx), playing black jack and screwin around on nicoles laptop. At that time I felt a bit uneasy or a bit upset about something... i jus didnt know what but, I thought maybe... nvm but i still enjoyed it because ive always really wanted to be this close to her, and i wouldnt mind waiting because of how much i really care. But to be honest if i staid any longer it would probably be trouble and not about caring nemore. I understand... As we left something was quite unexpected because of wat was shown back in the house, I hugged her! as we put our arms around each other, i smiled and felt really comfortable in her arms, that i wasnt forgotten and it brought back great memories, memories of our times together, how we shared our moments, what we did to create those moments, and the sacrifices we made for each other. The sweet smell, and warmth in her arms gave me a new feeling... something different, maybe love? i really admired her soft touch, a goodbye and her last words. I really didnt want to go, i really wanted to spend more time with her but i had to understand, and i knew it wasnt the best idea for her and i. So i let it all go, and on the way back home i was silent, i was quiet, i was thinking.... honestly i was upset, but that hug at the end gave me reassurance of something taht maybe she does care, that maybe she does believe i giv good values, that she does understand i will be there for her, that i am thinking bout her most of the time, that the times we spent are worth something. That we are given a chance to express ourselves. But whatever it was i didnt care because, no matter wat i will always, i will always be there for her and have my care for her. (sorry if im writing so much, but its a blog and i think thats how u write it, jus write woteva the fk u want aslong as it can be understood by other people :P) But overall i really enjoyed meeting u, it meant a lot for me, and it surely gave me something to think about. Thank you so much.

As our eyes met, I relised something.
Something soft, something sweet, something about you
Which gave me hope for you and myself
I really admire the way you talk, walk and move
As they reflect a true young lady with happiness
Happiness the word that I want only for you
That you should take care of yourself
But in the mean time, you can look up to me
If you need help, if you need my time, I have it left for you
Please understand your importance, that you stand in my heart
Because maybe I love you...

I cherish every moment I spend with you
I cherish your laugh
I Love the way you move
I love the way you talk
I love the way you care
I love how you are modest
I love your maturity
I love your interests
I love your way of thinking
I love how you put others in front at times
I love how you can entertain in your own ways
I love how you give people chances
I love how you give good values
I love your sweet voice
I love how you respect me
And maybe I just love you...

Its hard for me to give up my time for people,
but you have found a way, because i do not mind
giving up my time for you.
Everyday there are questions for me,
Everyday I jus want you to be there
I want you to understand how much I care
And in the end I just want to tell you thank you
for being there for me.

Well, im not very poetic but i guess blogging is about expressing, and i wrote it all out without another look :P, its from the heart yer? lol. Neways I just hope you all the best. Once again I want to thank my friend Tim for being there for me, whenever i need him, he is there to support me, even though sometimes its uneasy for him he still forgets how much his not enjoying this and he sticks by me and my problems. Thank you Tim, I want to thank nicole for being there for me, for spending cherishable times, which mean a lot to me, you too TIMMY!!.

Alright thats all from me

takecare all
night